Hey.. YOU, YES YOU!

I haven’t written a blog post since the end of June and summer is already over. Where has the time gone?! Where have I been? Geesh I feel like I have been everywhere in the world but yet..I really I haven’t. I went to Boston and Maine for about three weeks, visited family and friends, And actually had a vacation in Maine at Point Sebago. Beautiful nature surrounded, family camp resort. I post some pictures below.

But the struggle of it all, is once I leave NYC for a week or two I feel completely worthless and unproductive since I can’t do much auditions and attend events in Boston. (So occupied with catching up that when I eventually try to look up some work in Boston & I find nothing.) Its a bummer but each time is different. 

Where am I in my career? Lordy Lord, I have been going to many more auditions, taking classes, and getting coached. I ordered my head shots, postcards, and business cards to send to 10 agencies that I am interested in. I have a specific procedure I am going to follow within sending out my resume, thanks to my business coach Lisa Gold (check her out at Actoutsidethebox.com) She is an amazing women inside and out and teaches you the truths of the show biz!

I have also been working on a web series, called Anchor which you all can also watch the trailer here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Am0LQicE2j0&index=12&list=PL390812E0AF331C4A

It’s pretty insane how you work on a passion project and feel so connected with the whole cast. Like I never met anyone from the cast before until rehearsals, and it just feels like family. Thats my favorite part about working on a project, meeting awesome people that share and teach you so many things on this journey.

Coming to Nyc now officially TWO WHOLE YEARS, freaking bananas!!!; has really taught me on how to let go of judgmental thoughts about myself and others and just really ride the wave. 

Its hard yes, to continuesly do that, but when you incorporate it in your life and attempt to make it a habit, it becomes your lifestyle. Letting go of drama within family and friends or yourself can be a bit selfish you say? The truth is, its ok to be a little selfish, at least for yourself. You deserve anything you want here on this pilgrimage we call life. Nothing can possibly stop you but yourself. The ego is the biggest enemy that really holds most of us back. 

Killing the ego is the challenge, but YOU CAN DO ANYTHING. 

People always say they want to be happy right? Reaching happiness as a goal is kind of a failure. Because once that day comes, then what are you going to do? What you really have to do is maintain the happiness within your life time, within your journey….BUT HOW? Enjoy each and every moment you have, from the moment of being grateful of waking up in the morning, to the breakfast on your plate to having time to look up to the sky and be able to breathe the fresh air of any season.

Appreciating the smallest things in life become your little niches of happiness. Once you open that door, you start creating more opportunities towards your overall happiness. 

Life is love. Your in control of all the love you give and receive. it just takes practice.

I leave you with a favorite quote of mine:

"It seems that our paths in life are not found in our minds. Our path in life is to find out what is on our hearts." 

- Robert T. Kiyosaki

Love & Blessings,

Albamarina N.

Forgiveness is Hard Enough, but is it?

I have been doing a lot of reminiscing and thinking back to situations when I was younger that use to make me mad. No matter what the situation is, I know now we have no control over what and how people react and do things.  Because at the end of any situation in life we always have a choice.

Yes, i said it. A CHOICE. A move we can make.

I am an analyzer, and also a libra lol. So before I make any move I really have to think about situations.

But this isn't about me.  It's more about forgiving yourself after an argument or something you did that hurt another person.

You must be thinking, "Forgiving yourself? Alba don't you mean forgiving the other person that made you upset?"

Well yes, you have to (or choose to) forgive them, but before you forgive them, you MUST really forgive yourself. How can forgiving yourself help you?

Lets first start with letting that tension go.  Getting angry takes away more energy than being happy. Its a fact.  So while your upset about a situation that you can't really control or if its not going the way you planned, you are already wasting your energy mad about it then really trying to solve it or let it go in its own direction.

May sound a little confusing, but observe another fight or situation you or someone else may be in, and you will see! I promise.

I am going to share with you a VERY personal story, that made me feel mad, upset, angry, pissed, sad, ... EVERYTHING.

I was a senior in high school, and graduation was coming up. In about 4-5 days. My class and I were going on senior trips, excited for the big day. That Wednesday our class was going paint balling. While everyone was outside getting their cars ready, some one told me my principal was looking for me. I got called into the principals office to face the worst news of my life (at that moment).

*Mind you,  during my college application phase earlier that year, I literally kept receiving rejection after rejection. No acceptances, but 2 out of my list. I was frustrated and depressed. Seeing all my friends get acceptances while I was getting rejected was probably the hardest. Going to a College Prep school wasn't helping the situation in any way.  I ended up getting a full scholarship to do a gap year in Brazil (which was my life saver at such a down peak). *Happy dance*

But back to the story. My principal told me I wouldn't be graduating with my class (which was 2 days BEFORE graduadtion).  Because of an end of the year research paper in which I failed by TWO points. (I never failed a class in my whole middle-high school life)... I broke down, I pleaded to just walk on the aisle with an empty diploma and make up my paper.

She didn't budge. What I wanted most in my life at the time was my dad to see me cross the stage. He moved to Florida when I was 11 and he was traveling to my hometown, Boston for my graduation. I kid you not, that is all I wanted, to hear the words "I am proud."

I committed to my middle and high school so much; throughout my passion of clubs and any leadership roles I can grasp. And I never failed a class before! Never would I have thought I wouldn't have walked with my class.

The point? Well after that situation, I HATED every teacher in my school that existed. I felt like they looked down on me because:

 a) I wasn't going straight into college
 b) I didn't graduate with my class

I felt like everyone was against me. My parents didn't understand, my family was not really supportive of me going off for a year out of the country. It felt like everything was just going down hill.

But once I left the U.S, I realized I still held a lot of that hate within me. And I kid you not I felt it in my chest like a big ball wanting to just explode. And thats exactly what I did.  I talked about the situation with my friends abroad and just cried. I yelled, I swam in the water to let all that held in energy completely go...FREE. But what really helped me was writing.

I chose to forgive myself, and remind myself that I did nothing wrong. That I am valuable and I am unique. Remind myself, that my path may be the one I hadn't planned, but it sure was going to make me happy no matter what problem came across.

Then little by little I began to forgive everyone else. Not like I told them "I forgive you".  But in my sanctuary place. Where only I knew.  I had truly forgave them and did not keep ahold of any sort of grudge. Didn't happen over night, but over months.

There is always an outlet. You just have to find your own outlet, the one that truly frees you from any sort of negative energy that YOU do not really need in your life to truly be happy.

The challenge is to be aware and consistent with forgiveness. There is always a challenge you can over come.


Peace&Love,

Alba

Do you stop and think that your alone?

Hey Guys!

Lately I have been so busy doing so many things it feels like I never have time for myself.  But when I stop and think for one second and realize I am not alone, I can't help but smile.  Because people usually feel alone when their doing their thing in terms of working or "grinding" and focusing on them. Hey I am not going to lie, sometimes I do! What I really want to talk about is the value of friendship.

How beautiful it is to be YOURSELF 100% of the time around someone that knows you so well and loves, supports you all the way.

I was never really a only child, I mean I was for a while, but my father had four other kids before me with my stepmom and I was always surrounded by my older sisters when I would visit them in New York.  I always lived in Boston, but I was my mom's first child.  Growing up was not as hard as I would have thought (I also had step brothers and sisters) So I was always surrounded by many people and of course my cousins. I only had one- three people that really knew me. We were close and shared everything with each other.  But as we grow up our imagination gets smaller and we tend to throw away a lot of what we think about because our focus is on other things.

Friendship is something so beautiful that everyone encounters in sometime in their life. There are bad moments and sad moments but when you see the progress youre friendship/ relationship has made in just 5 years; you realize how much you care for one another. Also how much you both have grown as an individual and as a team.

Moving away from my small hometown to the loud, fast pace New York City has shown me that friendships are always going to present themselves no matter where and what state of mind I am in. (Even though you can get lost in NYC) The hard part is always showing appreciation frequently and letting the other person know how much you truly care for them.

But in all relationships come hardships, what matters at the end of the day is that you participate in the relationship, because thats what its really about. Working together as a team! 50/50! And always being their no matter the distance!

Whats one thing you do to keep you're friendships strong?

Peace&love,
Alba

Ready, set, GO!

So this is my attempt on having weekly posts! I mean I first need to start by saying that my spelling is horrible and I will keep my eye out for you guys. This blog doesn't have one specific focus; its more around life, acting, film, art, natural hair, success, struggles, traveling, friends, family, fun, discussions of the REAL world.  

I am originally from Boston but currently living New York following my ambition to become an Actress. How did i get here? Its a long and complicated journey but I am so appreciative of myself for really having the guts to do what I love. I attend the New York Film Academy and have been loving every moment.  I am still trying to get to know blogger so there will be some changes coming soon!

Once a week I will load a blog on the page! So hope you all enjoy!

xoxo,

Albs

Possibilities are endless like the waves of the sea