Want to be KID again?

Hi there Beautiful souls <3

I have been wanting to share with you all some inner thoughts that have been going on for a while, more like an appreciation phase in my life. As I sit on this bus leaving Monticello, New York going back to the chaos of the city; I realize that Multi-task and commitment are big thangs in the world of an adult. Yup it got a lot more realer.

Theres a beauty in being an artist. Although so many people perceive the industry and everyone that is not known as a "starving artist," I have changed my views on that false advertisement. See the thing is that people only say they are a starving artist because they live pay check by pay check. I'm not going to sit here and lie, it's still happening to me from time to time. But I have never in my life decided to be an artist because I wanted to starve and not have money. Lets face it, money is important and it is a factor to success. But in order to even get there, you have to have some perspective. 

I love to multi-task and I love kids. So what do I do with these passions? I use it as another source to create some sort of income to support my career. Extending yourself to other jobs that you know you are good at and can excel is probably the best thing, that anyone can offer. That way, you create your schedule, the way you know it needs to be and you do not have to worry about just having one job supplying your survival needs and become stressed while you enter the audition room (if you are an actress/actor/singer). But it really goes for any career, you do better when you know your not going in for the job, just for the money *FACTS* aka.. collected information from my sources; people already in the industry that are working.

Somehow this post got way off the topic I intended to talk about HA! Which is about, IMAGINATION. As an actress that constantly has to tap into the beautiful world of my imagination -crossing to a reality, I really really believe that as we grow older we tend to lose that spark. That flame that drove our parents crazy as children, playing with our toys, pretending that we are in the ocean, driving in a car (but its really a box); those kind of moments that we can only replay in our heads and keep to ourselves....or to our close friends.

Just close your eyes for a second and forget the bills, forget the problems, because honestly its all temporarily, and things will get better. They always do. Be a kid again. Theres nothing wrong with that. I mean honestly we all have a kid in us somewhere, we all were kids once right?! Thats the one thing we all have in common as human beings. 

Plan ahead of time and get in the comfort of being free..NO JUDGEMENT ZONE. Since that really gets us nowhere. 

Thats one thing I am definitely appreciative of. Being able to babysit, tutor, connect with kids of all ages. They need someone, besides their parents to penetrate their mind. As a sitter I have the opportunity to shape and guide the child to an extent and that in itself is a gift  because they are the future. Getting kind of emotional here because all my kids that I babysat when I was kid (I know kind of confusing) are all going to college! I can't even believe it, but I make sure that I check in on them. Its the least I can do. ITS FREE. Helping in itself is a free thing to do, it costs nothing but a little of your time. So make time for being a kid.

So much peace and love going your way.

Albamarina N.

The update & the 411

Hi You!!

It's been a bajillion years already, and I have missed you dearly. There is this thing called life that loves to test everything and everything that you are made of..so if you let it get to you, you will only let yourself down! Thats exactly where I've been, in the cloud of depression while cluttering my brain with a thousand more what-ifs, AND what I WANT to do.

Here's my intro video of the Depression stage:

It drove me nuts indeed it really did, but what really killed me was that the simple answer was right in front of me, surrounding me, and was told to me. The plan to ACTION. The hardest part in anything you and everyone else has to do to get to point A and point B.

So, I became inspired by my surroundings and started to change my (oh so not nice thoughts) and wrote down a plan. Ladies and gentlemen, I introduce to you, the 90 Day Goal Challenge.

You may be wondering what in the world is that thing?! Well, I did mention it in the above video, but really worked out the kinks in this one:

Now the real question is, is it really working? And the answer is: It's in progress. The #1 thing that you must do when taking any challenge upon thyself is to Plan ahead of time. What i mean is to really, set out your agenda the day before (in hour blocks) and plan out, each and everything you need to do to get to your big goal.

You have to discipline your self, to do the things you don't want to do, in order to get to the over all goal! Which is a good thing yes indeed, but once you force yourself to do the "hard work" everything that follows become more natural and less forceful. It becomes more of an enjoyment because you remind yourself of that nice big goal up there, waiting for you patiently.

I hope this inspires you to take the challenge and really focus on what you want to do and what you can do with a little bit of specifics, and planning.

Much love,

Albamarina N.

Been forever and I'm quite done with that

The fact that I haven't posted since November clearly make is seem like I have been ghost lol! I have been thinking about this blog and the real posts almost ever week I have not been posting smh. Life has got in the way and so much has occurred but this is the space where I come to and share with all you lovely souls, to converse and share life as an actor and where things are even headed.

So let me catch you up, I've been auditioning for more commercials, and rebranding myself way more. Oh just remembered I need to contact my new Headshot photographer for new head shots ha! I just recently came back from a trip from LA, from meeting new agents and managers. The seminar/ workshop was called " How to get more Acting work" by Lisa Gold and Tyrone Jackson.

It was great information, great networking, and a great push for me to REALLY wanting to move to LA. Not just because of the weather (although it does have a lot of influence), but honestly because its where I should be, commercials, tv, film world!!! Ain't got nothing on NYC!
But at the same time you can build whatever you want ANYWHERE YOU WANT!

It's a reminder I have to remind myself everyday, I am a work in progress. For the better. The most amazing thing is that I am almost done with my book.. yeah I am writing my first ever book. This is a crazy idea I have had for so long, and the fact that I have been doing it without thinking about is even more beautiful. So yes, I am proud of myself.  (   I WILL keep you guys posted:)  )

Moving forward with being positive, practice is important right? But the thing is, being positive all of the time is the real challenge.

How to countinuesly be positive?  Well one way that helps me is organization. Planning when to meditate and give yourself YOU time is important. You can plan out pieces of your whole week, by writing some things into a planner or char/list for the week, It's kind of important doing that every week or every day, because it builds habit and practice, so when you do it naturally its not a hard task. But the beginning of the journey does take discipline. Having a buddy helping you out is also extremely helpful.

Start with simple ways of being positive, have a note of your favorite quote in front of something you see everyday, make positive come to you as you go to it equally. What you put into the universe, does matter- as that and so much more will come right back your way.

With so much peace& love,

Albamarina N.

Be Socially Yourself!

Hey lovely souls,

I've had this topic on mind for a while and finally wrote about it. Hope you enjoy! --

Followers. 

Oh lord this is a topic that I could talk Bout all day everyday!

I visited one of my younger kids I babysat before and the first thing she said was, "do you have Instagram?"

I pause and gave her a confused look. She refreshes her picture and screams out, "omg 12 likes!!"

Wat the hell is going on in this world is the real question?! 8 & 9 year olds living off of social media acceptance. This has to be a night mare.... But it's not.

Mostly everyone I speak too even in my age bracket or older cater to how many likes or people see what they post. Not trying to knock your hustle; ok, you posted something but I think we are forgetting the most important part of it all: The true value. 

Are you posting things to become social media famous or are you posting things that you believe in, feel good about, and want people to learn or search/share to better themselves? Are you sharing your journey in a new project and promoting your passion so others can feel inspired to figure out their passion?

I think we all have to remember that we are humans. 

"Stop worrying about how many people follow you online and start worrying about the quality of people who follow you. Don't waste your time reading articles about how to get more followers. Don't waste time following people online just because you think it'll get you somewhere. Don't talk to people you don't want to talk to, and don't talk about stuff you don't want to talk about. 

If you want followers, be worth following."

Source From: Show Your Work! By Austin Kleon

This whole quote left me speechless and in awe. Because I am definitely guilty of searching how to get more audience for my posts to share my piece of thought. 

Hey I'm not perfect! 

But it's all true. I went back into my twitter and Instagram and unfollowed people I wouldn't even click on. I unfollowed people that didn't make me feel happy, and defintely didn't motivate me to be a better me.

That's my preference. I challenge you all, to remember we are all here on a journey to become the best we can possibly be. Start with what & who you surround yourself with, what you read everyday, what thoughts you tell & share with yourself. All these hings really matter on how your energy and attitude will be for each day you have. 

Remember  yesterday was the last youngest day you will ever have. Make the best of it and bring light that will make you feel amazing inside & out.

Cheers to the never ending journey of happiness.

Peace&love,

Albamarina N. <3

LIFE SUCKS!!

When what you plan hits the fan!!! 

What do you do ?? You panic "yes omg my life sucks, why does god do this to me, why can't I ever get what I want ?" Those are the typical questions we automatically ask our selves and begin to self doubt.... LAWD!!! 

That's how I'm feeling haha. But for a second I stopped and just thought to myself. Things aren't going as I planned because there is something BIGGER AND BETTER on it's way to tumble down across my graciousness! Yes because I am a queen, a rare one. But indeed I am. And the crown I hold is invincible. Just food for thought.

So feeling a bit ehhh and doubting life or issues your going through? REMEMBER YOU HAVE GONE THROUGH SO MANY THINGS THAT YOU THOUGHT WOULD BREAK YOU APART, but look where you are now. You have learned and healed through the pain, becoming a better you. 

Friendly reminder to self.

Peace&love,

Albamarina N.

P.s stand tall and strong like a well grounded tree.

Hey.. YOU, YES YOU!

I haven’t written a blog post since the end of June and summer is already over. Where has the time gone?! Where have I been? Geesh I feel like I have been everywhere in the world but yet..I really I haven’t. I went to Boston and Maine for about three weeks, visited family and friends, And actually had a vacation in Maine at Point Sebago. Beautiful nature surrounded, family camp resort. I post some pictures below.

But the struggle of it all, is once I leave NYC for a week or two I feel completely worthless and unproductive since I can’t do much auditions and attend events in Boston. (So occupied with catching up that when I eventually try to look up some work in Boston & I find nothing.) Its a bummer but each time is different. 

Where am I in my career? Lordy Lord, I have been going to many more auditions, taking classes, and getting coached. I ordered my head shots, postcards, and business cards to send to 10 agencies that I am interested in. I have a specific procedure I am going to follow within sending out my resume, thanks to my business coach Lisa Gold (check her out at Actoutsidethebox.com) She is an amazing women inside and out and teaches you the truths of the show biz!

I have also been working on a web series, called Anchor which you all can also watch the trailer here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Am0LQicE2j0&index=12&list=PL390812E0AF331C4A

It’s pretty insane how you work on a passion project and feel so connected with the whole cast. Like I never met anyone from the cast before until rehearsals, and it just feels like family. Thats my favorite part about working on a project, meeting awesome people that share and teach you so many things on this journey.

Coming to Nyc now officially TWO WHOLE YEARS, freaking bananas!!!; has really taught me on how to let go of judgmental thoughts about myself and others and just really ride the wave. 

Its hard yes, to continuesly do that, but when you incorporate it in your life and attempt to make it a habit, it becomes your lifestyle. Letting go of drama within family and friends or yourself can be a bit selfish you say? The truth is, its ok to be a little selfish, at least for yourself. You deserve anything you want here on this pilgrimage we call life. Nothing can possibly stop you but yourself. The ego is the biggest enemy that really holds most of us back. 

Killing the ego is the challenge, but YOU CAN DO ANYTHING. 

People always say they want to be happy right? Reaching happiness as a goal is kind of a failure. Because once that day comes, then what are you going to do? What you really have to do is maintain the happiness within your life time, within your journey….BUT HOW? Enjoy each and every moment you have, from the moment of being grateful of waking up in the morning, to the breakfast on your plate to having time to look up to the sky and be able to breathe the fresh air of any season.

Appreciating the smallest things in life become your little niches of happiness. Once you open that door, you start creating more opportunities towards your overall happiness. 

Life is love. Your in control of all the love you give and receive. it just takes practice.

I leave you with a favorite quote of mine:

"It seems that our paths in life are not found in our minds. Our path in life is to find out what is on our hearts." 

- Robert T. Kiyosaki

Love & Blessings,

Albamarina N.

To matter is to .. Change!

I'm sitting at a sushi place with my book in my hand and I can't help but listen to the conversation next to me (I know nosy me)! It's two older ladies around mid 60's super cool and down to earth women. And the direct line that drove me into their conversation that I have been hearing from a lot of older people for some time now; that really built a spark in my response: " I wish I can just go back in time and understand things differently. Not change anything in particular but learn about myself and situations." This right here is so real. It just is.

But I find in my response, how many older people believe that their time of understanding life has finished? It's merely just beginning if you are realizing this beautiful thing. You want more, you feel stuck and uncomfortable.. But feeling this weird feeling is ok, the discomfort is really what motivates to come out of your comfort zone.

Nobody wants to be in the same dimension in their lives forever, yet we fear change. Yes it's different, its a terrifying what "could" happen but what if that was your chance to really seek the peak of happiness you ever wanted? 

Wouldn't you want to live your life by facing your fears and saying "oh well" than,  "what if's?"

I invite you to try something new everyday or every week, I invite you to not think so much about some situations and go with your own gur feeling before sharing with anyone else. Because you matter! 

With much love&peace

Alba