Been forever and I'm quite done with that

The fact that I haven't posted since November clearly make is seem like I have been ghost lol! I have been thinking about this blog and the real posts almost ever week I have not been posting smh. Life has got in the way and so much has occurred but this is the space where I come to and share with all you lovely souls, to converse and share life as an actor and where things are even headed.

So let me catch you up, I've been auditioning for more commercials, and rebranding myself way more. Oh just remembered I need to contact my new Headshot photographer for new head shots ha! I just recently came back from a trip from LA, from meeting new agents and managers. The seminar/ workshop was called " How to get more Acting work" by Lisa Gold and Tyrone Jackson.

It was great information, great networking, and a great push for me to REALLY wanting to move to LA. Not just because of the weather (although it does have a lot of influence), but honestly because its where I should be, commercials, tv, film world!!! Ain't got nothing on NYC!
But at the same time you can build whatever you want ANYWHERE YOU WANT!

It's a reminder I have to remind myself everyday, I am a work in progress. For the better. The most amazing thing is that I am almost done with my book.. yeah I am writing my first ever book. This is a crazy idea I have had for so long, and the fact that I have been doing it without thinking about is even more beautiful. So yes, I am proud of myself.  (   I WILL keep you guys posted:)  )

Moving forward with being positive, practice is important right? But the thing is, being positive all of the time is the real challenge.

How to countinuesly be positive?  Well one way that helps me is organization. Planning when to meditate and give yourself YOU time is important. You can plan out pieces of your whole week, by writing some things into a planner or char/list for the week, It's kind of important doing that every week or every day, because it builds habit and practice, so when you do it naturally its not a hard task. But the beginning of the journey does take discipline. Having a buddy helping you out is also extremely helpful.

Start with simple ways of being positive, have a note of your favorite quote in front of something you see everyday, make positive come to you as you go to it equally. What you put into the universe, does matter- as that and so much more will come right back your way.

With so much peace& love,

Albamarina N.

Be Socially Yourself!

Hey lovely souls,

I've had this topic on mind for a while and finally wrote about it. Hope you enjoy! --

Followers. 

Oh lord this is a topic that I could talk Bout all day everyday!

I visited one of my younger kids I babysat before and the first thing she said was, "do you have Instagram?"

I pause and gave her a confused look. She refreshes her picture and screams out, "omg 12 likes!!"

Wat the hell is going on in this world is the real question?! 8 & 9 year olds living off of social media acceptance. This has to be a night mare.... But it's not.

Mostly everyone I speak too even in my age bracket or older cater to how many likes or people see what they post. Not trying to knock your hustle; ok, you posted something but I think we are forgetting the most important part of it all: The true value. 

Are you posting things to become social media famous or are you posting things that you believe in, feel good about, and want people to learn or search/share to better themselves? Are you sharing your journey in a new project and promoting your passion so others can feel inspired to figure out their passion?

I think we all have to remember that we are humans. 

"Stop worrying about how many people follow you online and start worrying about the quality of people who follow you. Don't waste your time reading articles about how to get more followers. Don't waste time following people online just because you think it'll get you somewhere. Don't talk to people you don't want to talk to, and don't talk about stuff you don't want to talk about. 

If you want followers, be worth following."

Source From: Show Your Work! By Austin Kleon

This whole quote left me speechless and in awe. Because I am definitely guilty of searching how to get more audience for my posts to share my piece of thought. 

Hey I'm not perfect! 

But it's all true. I went back into my twitter and Instagram and unfollowed people I wouldn't even click on. I unfollowed people that didn't make me feel happy, and defintely didn't motivate me to be a better me.

That's my preference. I challenge you all, to remember we are all here on a journey to become the best we can possibly be. Start with what & who you surround yourself with, what you read everyday, what thoughts you tell & share with yourself. All these hings really matter on how your energy and attitude will be for each day you have. 

Remember  yesterday was the last youngest day you will ever have. Make the best of it and bring light that will make you feel amazing inside & out.

Cheers to the never ending journey of happiness.

Peace&love,

Albamarina N. <3

LIFE SUCKS!!

When what you plan hits the fan!!! 

What do you do ?? You panic "yes omg my life sucks, why does god do this to me, why can't I ever get what I want ?" Those are the typical questions we automatically ask our selves and begin to self doubt.... LAWD!!! 

That's how I'm feeling haha. But for a second I stopped and just thought to myself. Things aren't going as I planned because there is something BIGGER AND BETTER on it's way to tumble down across my graciousness! Yes because I am a queen, a rare one. But indeed I am. And the crown I hold is invincible. Just food for thought.

So feeling a bit ehhh and doubting life or issues your going through? REMEMBER YOU HAVE GONE THROUGH SO MANY THINGS THAT YOU THOUGHT WOULD BREAK YOU APART, but look where you are now. You have learned and healed through the pain, becoming a better you. 

Friendly reminder to self.

Peace&love,

Albamarina N.

P.s stand tall and strong like a well grounded tree.

Hey.. YOU, YES YOU!

I haven’t written a blog post since the end of June and summer is already over. Where has the time gone?! Where have I been? Geesh I feel like I have been everywhere in the world but yet..I really I haven’t. I went to Boston and Maine for about three weeks, visited family and friends, And actually had a vacation in Maine at Point Sebago. Beautiful nature surrounded, family camp resort. I post some pictures below.

But the struggle of it all, is once I leave NYC for a week or two I feel completely worthless and unproductive since I can’t do much auditions and attend events in Boston. (So occupied with catching up that when I eventually try to look up some work in Boston & I find nothing.) Its a bummer but each time is different. 

Where am I in my career? Lordy Lord, I have been going to many more auditions, taking classes, and getting coached. I ordered my head shots, postcards, and business cards to send to 10 agencies that I am interested in. I have a specific procedure I am going to follow within sending out my resume, thanks to my business coach Lisa Gold (check her out at Actoutsidethebox.com) She is an amazing women inside and out and teaches you the truths of the show biz!

I have also been working on a web series, called Anchor which you all can also watch the trailer here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Am0LQicE2j0&index=12&list=PL390812E0AF331C4A

It’s pretty insane how you work on a passion project and feel so connected with the whole cast. Like I never met anyone from the cast before until rehearsals, and it just feels like family. Thats my favorite part about working on a project, meeting awesome people that share and teach you so many things on this journey.

Coming to Nyc now officially TWO WHOLE YEARS, freaking bananas!!!; has really taught me on how to let go of judgmental thoughts about myself and others and just really ride the wave. 

Its hard yes, to continuesly do that, but when you incorporate it in your life and attempt to make it a habit, it becomes your lifestyle. Letting go of drama within family and friends or yourself can be a bit selfish you say? The truth is, its ok to be a little selfish, at least for yourself. You deserve anything you want here on this pilgrimage we call life. Nothing can possibly stop you but yourself. The ego is the biggest enemy that really holds most of us back. 

Killing the ego is the challenge, but YOU CAN DO ANYTHING. 

People always say they want to be happy right? Reaching happiness as a goal is kind of a failure. Because once that day comes, then what are you going to do? What you really have to do is maintain the happiness within your life time, within your journey….BUT HOW? Enjoy each and every moment you have, from the moment of being grateful of waking up in the morning, to the breakfast on your plate to having time to look up to the sky and be able to breathe the fresh air of any season.

Appreciating the smallest things in life become your little niches of happiness. Once you open that door, you start creating more opportunities towards your overall happiness. 

Life is love. Your in control of all the love you give and receive. it just takes practice.

I leave you with a favorite quote of mine:

"It seems that our paths in life are not found in our minds. Our path in life is to find out what is on our hearts." 

- Robert T. Kiyosaki

Love & Blessings,

Albamarina N.

To matter is to .. Change!

I'm sitting at a sushi place with my book in my hand and I can't help but listen to the conversation next to me (I know nosy me)! It's two older ladies around mid 60's super cool and down to earth women. And the direct line that drove me into their conversation that I have been hearing from a lot of older people for some time now; that really built a spark in my response: " I wish I can just go back in time and understand things differently. Not change anything in particular but learn about myself and situations." This right here is so real. It just is.

But I find in my response, how many older people believe that their time of understanding life has finished? It's merely just beginning if you are realizing this beautiful thing. You want more, you feel stuck and uncomfortable.. But feeling this weird feeling is ok, the discomfort is really what motivates to come out of your comfort zone.

Nobody wants to be in the same dimension in their lives forever, yet we fear change. Yes it's different, its a terrifying what "could" happen but what if that was your chance to really seek the peak of happiness you ever wanted? 

Wouldn't you want to live your life by facing your fears and saying "oh well" than,  "what if's?"

I invite you to try something new everyday or every week, I invite you to not think so much about some situations and go with your own gur feeling before sharing with anyone else. Because you matter! 

With much love&peace

Alba

Afraid to love?

In my last relationship a couple years ago, I realized (years later) I wasn't in the relationship because I wanted to. It was because I wanted love. I needed love. I wanted someone to constantly make me happy. Even If I didn't love the person truly - deep down, I told myself that I eventually would. That's where I suffered internally. (This will make sense once you read down, promise!) 

In relationships we like to look for our significant other as "our other halves". That's one of first mistakes we do. We are so eager to find love that we don't even realize love is all around us. We have love inside us, but we don't see this as love.

People are starving for love, and when they taste just a little from someone else, it creates a big need and a wanting.

We create dramas when people believe they don't have love. 

"What am I going to do if he leaves me" " how can I live without her" : these are the dramas. 

All suffering, begins because of long ago we closed our hearts and we no longer feel the love that is even there. Some time in our life we became afraid to love, because we believed love isn't fair. "Love hurts." We try to be good enough for someone else and wanted to be accepted by someone else and we failed.  Already having a few lovers, a few broken hearts and that is when we give up. We don't trust love because we gave it a chance a couple times and to love again is to risk to much.

But.....

If we don't have any love for ourselves, how in the world can we pretend to share the love with someone else?

Going into a relationship we become needy and selfish. It all about me and what I want. We want "someone who needs me" to justify our existence. We think we are searching for love but in reality we are searching for "someone who needs me" someone who we can control.  (hence my introduction.) 

What we call love "someone who needs me" isn't love, it's selfishness. Selfishness does not work because there is simply no love there. 

Both people in the relationship are starving for love.

In the sex they have, they both taste a little love and it becomes addictive because again, they both are starving for love. 

We search for the best advice and read books that might as well be called "How to be sexually selfish." But where is the love in all of this? There is nothing we need to learn about love. Everything is already in our genes, in our nature. 

Love is everywhere, but we don't have eyes to see because our emotional body is no longer tuned to love. 

We are so afraid to love because it isn't safe to love. Fear of rejection scares us. We project something we are not; and try to be accepted by our significant other when we don't accept ourselves. The real problem is not our significant other rejecting us, it's that we reject ourselves, because we are not good enough, because that's what we believe and tell ourselves.

Self-rejection. You will never be good for yourself when the idea of perfection is wrong. It's a false concept that does not even exist. But yet you believe it. Not being perfect, you reject yourself.

"You can never forgive yourself for not being what you wish to be, and that's the real problem. If you change that, you take care of your half of the relationship. The other half is not your problem." - Don Miguel Ruiz

You have to focus on the most wonderful and important relationship you can ever have: the relationship with yourself!!!!!

Self love, you need to love yourself and then the love will grow more and more! Then later on when you enter a relationship, it is not because you need to be loved, it becomes your choice. And you can see who he really is. When you don't need his love you don't have to lie to yourself. 

You are complete when love is coming out of you and you are not searching for love because you are afraid of being alone. When you have self love you can be alone and there is no problem.

Going into a relationship of any kind, is because we want to share, enjoy, have fun, and not be bored. Looking for a partner to play and enjoy what we are. Just like when were children. We are attracted to other children because we want to play and have fun, not because we want to fight. And If it does happen it's short and over; and we continue to play. Even when we get bored we change the game and the rules but we are exploring all the time!

Start your loving journey and Go love yourself!

Peace&blessings,

Alba

Credit: The Mastery of love by Don Miguel Ruiz

Want to be proud of yourself?

Hey y'all,

As I sit here in Starbucks reading, The Wealthcure by Hill Harper, I was distracted a couple times by a homeless man outside of Rite Aid with a Dunkin Donuts cup in his hand asking for change, while opening doors to customers.

I noticed him conversing with some customers that gave him the cold shoulder; then some people actually gave him change and replied to him decently. 

Then I noticed him speaking to other homeless people walking by. This guy doesn't look aggressive, but nice. I can read his face very clearly. Besides him being homeless; what he really wants is love. He wants to care and feel normal by having a regular conversation with people. Mind you I don't even know this guy, just picking up on some of his gestures!

But most people would walk by quickly without thinking twice about this homeless guy, just because he's homeless. And apperance is usually what we judge first hand. We think we got it together or "oh aren't we glad we are not homeless". Not really knowing their story, we simply look away and forget that he is human too.

That's when appreciation comes in. We love to state that we hate our lives, stressed with work, not enough money, no significant other, fat, etc but rarely give ourselves credit for the things we've had or accomplished in our lives so far. 

Being proud of oneself is hard, yes. But it starts somewhere. It really starts within yourself. Regardless of where you Stand in life, unemployed, alone, depressed; take a Moment to hug yourself. Give yourself credit for having a roof over your head every night, for people that support you, for getting your high school diploma/ GED, for realizing that your not happy where you stand and want to CHANGE that. 

As I mentioned in my previous post, change all does start with the thought process of your mind. YOU know what's best for you. Don't limit yourself because you don't have the resources or finances to reach that goal. BUILD the things you don't have. Research. Create a support system. Creat a plan. And disect it for an everyday goal.

"Everyone has a purpose in life... A unique gift or special talent to give to others." -- Deepak Chopra

You have to find your purpose. And you will see results. 

My connection with the homeless guy?.. I am a firm believer of giving and receiving. So I do give change and my meals to some homeless people I see. I definitely want to dedicate some time in volunteering to the organizations that have guided me in my life. There's no other reward then giving back. It's a great feeling of accomplishment when you give back. Theses small things end up being an investment in yourself. No one can ever take that away.

P.S : The homeless guy walked into Starbucks cracking some jokes to some customers laughing with his friend! Then pointed at me because I smirked at the joke. HA why so serious? Laughing is healthy :)

Comments, questions, opinions? Don't hesitate to write them in the comment section!

Peace&love,

Alba